I love short letters or just a note from friends, makes me feel warm all over when i read them.
However, i will feel scared when they say they like my smile.
What if I stop smiling?
When I die, my corpse wont carry a smile will I?
Does that mean i cant leave a good last impression on my friends and loved ones?
When I die, i stop being cynical, sarcastic, and at the same time i stop being unpredictable, jovial, funny...
Does that mean i wont be able to leave a good last impression on anyone when i die.
How would they feel when they look at my corpse?
Would they feel unfamiliar, because I smile too much when I was alive to them, or perhaps when i frown too much.
I guess only strangers will find me recognisable then, cos I wont have any facial expression towards strangers, when i die, my corpse will be impression-less too, so they can recognise me.
I always say i cant recognise faces well, even those most familiar, i recognise their body language, the way they talk, their hairstyle, but I dont remember their faces well, I always remember they as a whole, so whenever i look at anyone's face too closely, I feel like I'm looking at a stranger.
I guess when everyone dies, they become strangers to those around them too.

曲名：怕死 歌手：陈奕迅

曲名：怕死 歌手：陈奕迅
无端端今年开始很怕死
年轻一点
一点都不顾忌
轮到末
最怕活着
但是没运气
争口气
人一生很少多于一世纪
还省起很多任务末做
不等于有期
够我逐件逐件地办理
重新整理
谈恋爱 游天地
做喜欢的工作和享受游戏
一死了 怎细味 一想死
强壮地吸口气 来看戏 来打机 来接吻
来添饭 来签些卡也好过去死
如老友个个对我实在好
何以要个个在到我
丧礼里狂号
还要人悼念
真的太残酷 多恐怖
如你你我我厌世便入土
儿女与爱侣照顾的责任谁去做
一想到 总却步 怎舍得死
谈恋爱 游天地 做喜欢的工作和享受游戏
一死了 怎细味 一讲起
还是记得很怕死
埋在脚下黄土地
难度会比这里有惊喜
不舍得剩得你
谁在某天都会死
无奈我并无准备
留下未看的戏太早死
不舍得合起眼地逃避
(他不想死 她不想死 落力站着但没实地 你却放弃在原地)
谁更弱 你问你
(他不想死 她不想死 落力站着但没实地 你却厌世地逃避)
谈恋爱 游天地 做喜欢的工作和享受游戏
一死了 怎细味
迟早死 la...
为何还提早死
人人迟早够期
今天为怎么想死
过两日再问你 完全忘记
活着又另有趣味
你未曾 到末期
而我未 舍得你

~~~

all of a sudden, I dont feel like dying.
I wanna buy eason chan's latest live concert vcd and I bought the Cd version,
BooHooHoo!

How happy are you?

Are you just "happy" happy,
"happy-as-compared-to-hungry-africans" happy,
"over-the-top" happy,
"the-whole-world-should-smile-for-me" happy,
or "I'm-not-sad" happy?

Why are you happy then?

Because you did something everyone praised you for? (it should make them happy, not you.)
Because you did something you really wanted to do? (what if nobody saw? would you be as happy? would you still be so happy if nobody objected to it in the first place?)
Because nothing made you sad today? (then you should feel neutral, cos happiness doesnt come so easily)
Because the usual things that made you sad everyday didnt happen? (that would make you a neutral again, but an optimistic neutral)
Or because the usual things that made you sad didnt make you that sad today? (that makes you an optimistic tragedy)

What was your happiest moment like?

So happy you could fly? (but you cant fly, so does it mean you cant be at your happiest at all?)
So happy you wanna give everyone a treat? (does it make them happy, or does it just makes you happier, or does it just makes you feel less guilty of feeling happy when most people are not happy?)
So happy you forgot all your unhappiness? (you mean you still have unhappiness even at your happiest moment?)

Are you sad?
Why?
What was it like?

Are you unsatisfied?
Why?
What was it like?

Are you enthusiastic?
Are you nonchalent?
You cant be bothered?
Jealous?
Proud?
Angry?
Afraid?....

?
?
?.....

Hmm, havent blogged for a long time.
Too many things to talk about but I've spent all my time on MapleStory. You wouldnt believe how long I stare at the computer nowadays. I guess that's the result of having no computer for 3 years.
Anyway, I've came back from LEP camp, it was memorable, but only because the facils were very friendly with each other. The J1s are not part of the fond memories.
Soo's birthday was celebrated at Kbox, and being such a directionless idiot, I needed Renren and WX to come fetch me (-_-"). Anyway, I sang more than usual that day, mainly because I was still suffering from LEP camp withdrawal syndrome, need some time to get used to it.
I read somewhere an author said he'd never blog because if he does, like the rest of the bloggers, his life will be divided into "this will make a good blog entry" and "this is not gonna be a good blog entry". THAT is so true.

X-men

Yes, i have just watched X-men: The Last Stand at the gala premier in Cathay Cineleisure.
It was X-tremely X-traordinarily X-citing and you could practically catch the X factors in your hands.
It was that damn good.
And coming from me, a fanatic X-men fan, of its comics, cartoons and now movies, it means its really really great.

WARNING: Spoilers Ahead!!! (stop reading if you dont want me to spoil the surprises for you)

Well,I utterly broke down when professor X died. Yes, the leader, teacher, friend of many mutants died in this story, and a terrible one, too. He was cut into smithereens, into dust, and there was nothing left of this great leader. Furthermore, he died in the hands of one of his favourite student, Jean Grey, or rather, Dark Phoenix.
Cyclops died in her hands too.
Jean Grey couldnt stand her other personality killing her most loved ones and requested Wolverine to kill her too. He agreed in the end.

The visuals were stunning, the scenes were perfectly crafted except I realised a defect: wolverine was injured in a scene on his right chest but the damage to his shirt was missing (he heals instantly but there should be a hole in the shirt).
Except for that, everything was good, it was intensed and Storm totally rocks.
For one, Halle Berry is HOT, and Storm seems to carry a torch for Wolverine in this film, though he only has eyes for Jean Grey.
Storm's stunts were amazing, especially when lightning shoots out of her hands when she's fighting Callisto, and when her pupils turn white when shes using her powers. Plus, she finally got a good hairdresser this time round.

I love it when they made Magneto took the "cure for mutancy" and made him one of them - the homo sapiens, the species Magneto despised. He immediately abandoned poor Mystique when she saved him by taking a shot for him and became normal, so serve him right. But at the end of the movie, he managed to move a metal chess piece slightly when he tried real hard, so maybe there'll be X4!!! *jumps around*

Alas, i didnt get a goodie bag, I suppose the theatre I'm in is not the "main" one as in there were a few theatres screening X-men together, so ours didnt get a goodie bag. But nevertheless, the best part was watching the movie firsthand and savour the genius behind it longer.

Oh did I mention Colossus was completely useless with about 2 lines in all and all he did was throw Wolverine up in the sky? Angel wasnt any better too, but he sure flew like an Angel, not to forget his handsome face resembles an Angel too.

Rogue took the cure and became normal cos she couldnt stand Iceman's closeness with Shadowcat. I dont like Rogue ever, so I dont really mind.
Iceman rocks totally too.

The actresses playing Jean Grey, Famke Jannsen, and the one playing Rogue, looks old and rugged I dont know why. Hugh Jackman, as the beloved Wolverine, grew old too.
Only Halle Berry and the rest of the younger crew remained stunning.
Beast was superb.

Erm that's about all, altogether its a very emotional film abour rights, understanding and fighting for your beliefs, like what Storm said: Mutancy can never be cured. It wasnt a disease in the first place.

All Hail X

Lo and Behold, i now have a computer with internet access!

每一天，上学以前，我都会在家中的客厅先插上耳机，收听YES933连续播放的歌曲。
在寂静的家中，声量只需要调到3便非常清晰了；
到了车站，车声使我不得不调到5才听得见歌曲；
上了车，引擎的噪音使我又把声量调到7；
若车上有流动电视那恶心的杂声，连声量10也没用，我还是听得到外面的噪音，不可以沉醉在不受打扰的歌声中，慢慢入睡。

人生中，我们时不时也要根据环境、场合来调整自己。
面对母亲，容忍心是3；因为母亲无论如何都是自己的，不会离开，不会背弃自己，所以我们不知不觉中忘了对他们有耐心。
面对朋友，容忍心是5；朋友应该是不离不弃，两肋插刀的，互相容忍已是极限，受不了对方便摊开来吵架吧，没什么大不了。
面对情人，容忍心是7；爱情让人盲目，被卖了还会帮人家算帐，对情人的任何无理要求人们都乐意接受。
面对孩子，容忍心是10；孩子是母亲的一切，母亲纵容他们，养育他们，接受他们，无怨无悔。与声量不一样的是，母亲的容忍量是可以抵挡一切外在阻力的。
说穿了，每一个人都是一个容器，根据环境改变容量，而最大量的，就是母亲。
只有她会在你一再犯错之后还默默为你祈祷，希望你回头；
只有她会在你彷徨无助的时候，永远为你伸出双手；
只有她在你快乐时比你更快乐，忧愁时则更忧愁。
母爱如天地般广阔，大海般深远，可惜养儿方知父母恩，唯有我们自己也成了那无边的容器时，才会感激母亲的无限付出，只希望到时不会太晚。
妈妈，母亲节快乐。

Name 20 people you can think of. Don't read the questions below before you are done listing the names. Tag 5 people to do this survey.

1. Xin Ying (NHSS)
2. Yen Ping (NHSS)
3. Soo aka Tako (NYJC)
4. Hsiang Ling (NYJC)
5. Zhixin (NYJC)
6. Liyan (NHSS)
7. Wenxin (erm, WDP, NHSS, NYJC)
8. Xuan Yi (NHSS)
9. Ren Ren (NYJC)
10. Ming Lin (NYJC)
11. Jasmine (****)
12. Estelwen (NYJC)
13. Zhu Xiu (NHSS)
14. Man Nga (NHSS)
15. Wei Hao (NYJC)
16. Chun Meng (NYJC)
17. Shu Ping (NYJC)
18. Edwin (NYJC)
19. Miao Yu (NYJC)
20. Tian Tian (NYJC)

*so you can see i'm trying to be as random as possible to avoid some weird, unfortunate, damned questions.*

How did you meet 14? (Man Nga)
We were in CO in NHSS, she's from dizi and I from zhong ruan. Not sure when we first interact but I know she's very artistically talented (she took Arts and now AEP) and she designed our CO tee that year. We got closer when we went for the Fudan trip together last year.

What would you do if you never met 1? (Xin Ying)
I'd most probably be dead. If I've never met her my 2 years of upper secondary would be chaotic and I wont even have money to pay for my O levels if she hadn't lent me money. She's the only friend who can bully me, like how I bully my JC friends now. Yep, she made my sec school year much more fun.

What would you do if 20 and 9 dated? (Ren Ren and Tian Tian respectively)
I would expect the sun to turn black, the moon to turn blood red, the earth'e crust starts to move vigorously, in other words, it would be the end of the world. They're both cute (girls) though.

Did you ever like 19? (Miao Yu)
Yes. She was such a funny friend and we clicked. (No, I'm not a lesbian.)

Would 6 and 17 make a good couple? (Liyan and Shu Ping)
Definitely if not for the fact that they're absolutely straight. Shu Ping is totally crazy, fun, sassy and knows how to have a good time while Liyan's life is more boring, since she spends a lot of time studying. (She's a potential President Scholar)So ya, they complement each other.

Describe 3. (Soo)
A very, very cute individual who loves Jap stuff. She likes comics and anime like I do too. Recently she was affectionately known as Tako cos her hair is so, so, so BLACK. She sings weird soongs to convey her emotions and changes the lyrics to hilarious ones with such smoothness she's born to be a lyricist.

Do you think 8 is attractive? (Xuan Yi)
Not exactly attractive as in sexual attraction since she's a gal, but I think she's nice looking. And she's gonna become a bag of bones if she kept insisting she's fat and on a diet 24/7.

Tell me something about 7. (Wenxin)
We were classmates since we were in Pri 4, until now. She surprises me sometimes, though we have known each other for very long. She comes up with really good quotes, poems, or just a sharp comment which makes me totally in awe and wonder what else is there that I dunno about her.

Do you know any of 12's family? (estelwen)
She has a mum, a dad, a younger sister who's studying in Cedar now. Her cousin just got married, erm, ya that's all.

What's 8's favourite? (xuan yi)
erm...dunno, but she definitely have someone in mind.

What would you do if 11 confesses that he/she likes you? (Jasmine)
Nah, she loves Ryoma too much to spare any love for humble creatures like us.

What language does 15 speak? (Wei Hao)
english, chinese, turtle language (look how he communicate with JY)

Who is 9 going out with? (Ren Ren)
I think nobody, or at least no one I know of. I shall pester her to tell me then (Muahahaha)

How old is 16 now? (Chun Meng)
Officially 17, same birthday as the ever Bian Tai No.5

When was the last time you talked to 13? (Zhu Xiu)
The time when she called me to congratulate me for my essay being published in zaobao, 2 months ago?

Who's 2 favourite band/singer? (Yen Ping)
Erm, 女子十二乐坊? Ya I'm serious, YP is not into that kinda thing, and she's from Co,so ya.

Would you date 4? (Hsiang Ling)
Given her complicated family backgrounds, nope, I shall remain her neighbour to prevent any possibility of me becoming relatives with those weirdos.

Would you date 7? (Wenxin)
Nah, crazy.

Is 15 single? (Wei Hao)
I think so, and shall remain so for the near future.

What's 10's last name? (Ming Lin)
Chua, and she's called Serene.

Would you ever be in a serious relationship with 11? (Jasmine)
HELLO? I said NO. She's got Ryoma!!!

What school does 3 go to? (Soo)
NYJC lah

Where does 6 live? (Liyan)
Ha, she lives a block away from me, in Jurong area.

What's your favourite thing about 5? (Zhixin)
Her way with people. She can hold a conversation with anyone.

Have you seen 1 naked? (Xinying)
Nah, crazy.

Tagged victims:
1) Wenxin
2) Me
3) Myself
4) I
4) My other self

Tired of Living.

Yeah.
These days, dont ever taunt me by saying things like "没死过啊?" or anything that sounds vaguely similar. NO.
And dont mention it to WX either.
Cos we're all a bit tired of living.

Not that I intend to jump down Esplanade and get pricked to death by the durian shells or go up Swissotel and roll down the steps, I mean, how do I even get to the top of these places?I'll die of asthma before I reach 10m above sea level.
Okay that's not the point.

The point is, life is getting monotonous around here.
The greatest point of my life is when we had a fire drill today, where I get to have brunch late when my stomach is already starting to digest itself since hourse ago. Throughout the session my verbal vocab was limited to
a)growling at every moving organism,
b)complaining to no one in particular,
c)cursing the sun, the sun rays and the UV rays in the sun rays,
d)cursing at the group of people starting with the "T" word who's standing under the cool, lovely shade. And
e)growling.
There, I guess you know how I feel under that 359K weather.

And did I mention i actually had a sense of sincere gratitude for dm.www.wangyou.com for their newest update of ONEPIECE comics? I was that close to be bored to death.

I guess everyone comes to the point where things gets so boring one gets tired of living.
Perhaps the life after death would be much more interesting, but then again, it means I expect to continue living, just in another form, after my death. This is not very logical cos when you die, you stop living, isnt it?
And even if there is a life after death, it means one day I'll get tired of living too, because no matter how interesting it is, someday I'll get used to it and when I get used to it, I get bored, and when I get bored, I feel tired of living. But the worse thing is, when you get tired of living during your life after death, you cant get out of it by dying another time can you? Then what happens then?
I have had a relatively much shorter sense of concentration and attention span since I was a baby. I needed fun stuff to keep me awake, which explains why
a)I can sit for hours in front of a LEGO set and fall asleep during every lecture time.
b)I can continue surfing the net or reading books/comics, but starts to yawn 10 sec into studying.
c)I can stare into space when i do homework or even exams even though I may know how to do them, I just get bored and tired and starts to daze the time away.

Let's admit it, there is just that much things you can do in school, and even though you may have fun friends, funny teachers and funny-looking classmates doesnt make everyday full of sunshine and roses.
Even at home, there is only that many things to do. Sleep is the only standing pasttime that I enjoy til now. The TV shows are spastic, especially those made in Singapore. I dont have a computer at home. I;ve read most books at home except the Bible, but I cant bring myself to finish it cos it's not in the "fun" category.

Everyday, you wake up, wash up, prepare to go to school or work or anything else.
even during weekends, you just wake up late but do similar things all over again.
Isnt it just leading everyone to get tired of living eventually?
So isnt it completely logical that I subject myself to online comics, blogging, reading blogs, surfing for stupid stuff, doze off during lessons, laugh ans scold as I like, and just behave in a totally decadent and arrogant way?
I'm trying to make my live more livable here, at least mine's more interesting that many peoples' lives.
Why do you think I love fantasy stories/comics/movies so much? To be able to dream is one other way to make live more livable! Since we will get tired of living eventually, might as well extend the deadline or shorten the process itself, right?
Cheers!

I feel so excited already.

Apparently I am supposed to be the leader among the 5 facilitators from NY for the LEP writing camp! The overall teacher-in-charge from HC happens to be the same teacher who were with us when we were in Taiwan for immersion and he happens to remember my name! He happened to find it convenient to find someone whom he knows as the leader for each JC and hence he chose me! Wow. I feel so excited already. A question came into my brain: what could be worse?
Seriously, I am quite reluctant to go as a facil in the first place and now i will have 10 times the responsibility! Trust me, it's not fun when your group members are all quite not close to you, especially with a hyperactive loud mouth and a bo-chap and two twins linked by some invisible umbilical cord. Also, the people you're gonna lead are made up of either childish teenagers who cant be 20m away from their maid or china students who are older than you are so u feel stupid when giving instructions. Yeah.
Plus we're supposed to organise some stupid programmes and participate in some silly mass dance that the rest are obviously excited about. I mean, come on, what's so great about mass dance? It's just like a group of silly ducks with two left feet having an orgy in a large hall.
And did I mention there'll be 200+ J1s this year? GREAT.
And we're supposed to give out pillows, pillow covers and room keys and everything and we're gonna wake those sleepheads who refuse to wake up in the morning.
I feel so excited already.

You Are 20 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

*SNORTS at ZX*

Cute

We're supposed to be friends forever...


But they turned their back on me...

In case you're wondering, the pics are from a file of mine, lol
can't you see I'm bored?

The End

We finished the handing over ceremony yesterday to the J1 exco.
I know the short speech I gave was quite weird, quote un-me, but ya, I really think that the new exco should put in a lot of effort on studying. They wouldn't like it if one of them had to leave LEP, or even the school because they didnt do well in their studies right?
To me, I think we should number our multiple identities like this:
1)Human
2)Child
3)Student
4)Exco
First of all, we should be a human being and be humane in everything we do ya know.
Secondly, not worth sacrificing family relationships because of school.
Thirdly, out studies must come first before anything, it'd be sad if they were like us, scoring too lousy and end up our teachers do a lot of things for us.
Forthly, be a responsible exco!

Yeah, that's about all.
Wish them all the best.

Gotta start studying hard now, a bit touched by Mr.Loke's song that day.
It takes a lot for a teacher to take up a giutar and sing a song though his voice is not exactly fantastic just to show us and reassure us that he really really cares.
I gotta score well for my maths just because I owe him that song.

For Chem, erm, because dear Mrs.Chew is not exactly of a great help, need to depend on myself now.

For LEP, must do it because Mdm Loke kept stressing her greatest hope is to applause us in Feb next year when we get our O levels results.

Yeah Right.

Croc Files

We went to Crocodile Farm in Serangoon yesterday!
It was quite small, but we saw quite a lot of crocodiles, the largest one was about 2 metres long(?).

Apparently an adult male crocodile can grow up to 8 metres long!
We'd be swallowed up without realising it.
We witnessed how they feed chicken head (bunches of them together) to crocodiles, it was swallowed whole, with the strings.
Actually I felt quite sad after a while, seeing how several large crocodiles can be forced to sqeezed into a small rectangular cemented "pool" that is terribly filthy and the crocodiles have moss on their teeth, faces and mouth!

Moreover, we were ushered into a processing room whereby the people there will process raw crocodile skins and other reptile skins from other countries. I mean, you're feeding and exhibiting crocodiles outside and you're making their skins into hangbags inside!?!?
The guide even showed us pictures of how crocodiles were skinned and described it ever so convincingly. We even touched unprocessed crocodile skins.
I feel so sad for the crocs, i mean, just because i have beautiful skin, do I have to be killed for it? or for my meat? or for my oil or teeth or bones or whatsoever? The protected species are not killed for the products, then what about the more common ones? Just because they reproduce more and managed to survive with more skills, does it mean human beings have to hunt them until they become endangered also? Damn.
And did anyone realise how the front legs of crocodiles resemble a human hand?
Human beings are in so much excess we're killing the earth, why not hunt human beings?
Bleahx...
Anyway, Mdm Loke bought each of us a hand phone accessory with 2 small pieces of crocodile skin, though I was very against it, i understand her good intentions and care towards us, gifts for 20 ppl is no kidding man.
On our way back to school for the LEP S paper, she paid the taxi fare too, but she wanted to repay her by doing well for A levels, seriously, I rather give her back the money than give her empty promises. Sigh.

Genes

You are the original template
you are the original exemplary
how seen were you actually?
how revered were you (honestly) at the time?
why pleased with your low maintenance?
you loved us more then we would've loved you back
where was your ally your partner in feminine crime?
oh mother who's your buddy?
oh mother who's got your back?
the heart of the house
the heart of the house
all hail the goddess!
you were "good o!"
you were "count on 'er 'til four am"
you saw me run from the house
in the snow melodramatically
oh mother who's your sister
oh mother who's your friend?
the heart of the house
the heart of the house
all hail the goddess!
we left the men we went for a walk in the gatineaus
and talked like women like women to women would
womyn to womyn would
"where did you get that from?
must've been your father your dad"
I got it from you I got it from you
do you see yourself in my gypsy garage sale ways?
in my fits of laughter?
in my tinkerbell tendencies?
in my lack of colour coordination?

~~~

Just read Estel's blog and it came to me about hereditary traits and all...
Although scientifically we know we get some traits from our parents like dark hair, brown eyes, buck tooth and all, but in actual fact we get some of their characters, IQ, EQ etc too.
For me, as much as I hate to admit, I do resemble my damned-cursed-jerk father more as in i got his intelligence i.e. cunning-ness in me. The mole between my eyebrows came from him too by the way.
Sometimes I wonder why I can lie through my teeth and stare at the victim straight in the eye at the same time. I realised it's hereditary now.
Because we're so similar to our parents, because we came from them, because we're their kids.
I got all the better bad points my father has, his wits, his talent for lies, his cunning mind, and I realised i got more appearance traits from my mum, though my dark hair is from my dad.
It's an amazing thing, this hereditary talk and all, we get to thank our parents for the good traits they gave us, and we can blame them for the bad traits for all we want. :)

Wow!

Guess what?
I was informed by Mdm Loke to be able to get out of the LEP writing camp yesterday morning! Just as I was thanking Allah, Buddha, Goddess of Mercy and God and of course, Mdm Loke for helping me fight for my right of not going since I didnt go last year, she broke my bubble soon after during CT period that the MOE still wants me to be there because they were lack of helpers.
Damn!!! Arghhh!!!!
what can I do except to hide ina corner while an old violin weep in the background?
.....
And the new LEP exco is now out!
I am officially a high class cleaner and gardener now, no, stop calling me quarter mistress, u hear me?
Never do what you dont wish others to do unto u, i.e. when you're about to become a quarter mistress, or your friend is gonna become one, dont insult them by saying quarter mistresses are just high class cleaner and gardener!
If not, you might be beaten up, or worse, the quarter mistresses will go crazy and start calling themselves high class cleaner and gardener.
.....
A friend emailed me some paintings of Donald Zolan, a french artist and his art is brilliant, all about beautiful toddlers and the cute things they do, you guys should really gonna check them out, or u can tag me to email to you.
.....
I was very hungry yesterday when I had my dinner which is at 8.30, hence i feel so bloated and ended up in stomach upset. Great.

Stuck.

I'm in the library now and the rain is bloody heavy you'll be drenched just by looking at it, and the possibility of one getting struck by lightning is as high as estelwen.
In another words, in order to prevent myself from getting soaked in rain and falls sick again, or get barbequed before Soo's birthday party, I'm officially stuck in the Jurong Library.

Did I mention my mum spent $48+ to "compensate" for a VCD she returned which was announced to be broken into half? It was perfectly okay when she returned it but she was then told it was spoilt, it would cost $60+ but since it was her first offence they charge her $48+, which is complete sh*t. You mean it's negotiatable?!
Where is the proof that my mum broke that VCD into half, and which cartoon VCD in the world would cost as much as 2 DVDs?!
Jurong Library is now deemed totally crap in my opinion by taking advantage of a lady who was left on her own then and doesnt know much english.
We've sworn not to borrow any VCDs from any libraries.

Anyway,time to slap myself and start to study eh?
Time is running out. Especially when my school position is like, 60th%?
Sigh.
Been thinking lately there's really nothing I can do except go university, and the school fees then is another issue.
My cousin who's younger by 1 year is doing part time and doesnt take pocket money from her mum anymore, like what my sister did since she was Sec 4.
Which makes me totally useless by still taking money from my mum eh?
But who in the right mind would go part-timing when in J2? It's like suicide, especially when I am not the brightest person around with maths and chemistry and chinese and everything else.
And what am I doing on Good Friday? Sleep, laze around, go read comics and play Gunbound. Damn myself.
Hohoho...I was inspired by Shaman King when I was re-reading it that day. I totally appreciate the main character's attitude. Never force yourself to do anything which is not your style. 船到桥头自然直. Because it's such a difficult thing to remain true to yourself eh? So the more you should never bend your own principals.

Reminds me of a favourite song by Jacky Cheung:
微尘
张学友
曲 词:古倩敏
编:赵增熹

熙熙攘攘 忙忙碌碌
从没有时间把我脚步来看清楚
醉了又醒 醒了又醉
哭完又笑 笑完了又会哭

多少问题的答案是说不出
不知寻到是苦恼还是幸福
明知是梦却依然那样投入
光阴无情的巨轮谁又挡得住

山河大地本是微尘
何况是尘中的尘
是是非非 情情爱爱
你还要不要紧紧的抱着
舍不得 放不开

山河大地本是微尘
何况是尘中的尘
想要解脱 想要受缚
就凭你一颗心去判夺

谁在纳闷 谁在快乐
谁来受生来病死 又会谁来成佛
身如泡沫 如何寄托
心念如电如何去探索

山河大地本是微尘
何况是尘中的尘
是是非非 情情爱爱
你还要不要紧紧的抱着
舍不得 放不开

山河大地本是微尘
何况是尘中的尘
想要解脱 想要受缚
就凭你一颗心去判夺

You wanna be tied up by yourself, or do you wanna grab some freedom. Caution: for both, a price has to be paid.

Random.

It's been so long since I blogged! (okay it' barely a week)
Many things have happened, for one, I am like, the 60% batch in school, it only takes 30 people to improve for it to be compulsary for my Mum to come to school! I swear i must improve my school position because i cant stand such a complete failure to be part of me.
There are a million sides to everyone and a failure in studying, especially in not a v good school, is totally unforgivable, to my dominant self (the good self) *smiles sweetly*

Anyway, the exco thing is driving me schizo if I'm not already one.
Things always gets complicated when it involves those close to you.
Sigh.

Me, WX and Soo went Orchard yesterday, supposedly to meet those who came from taiwan for their graduation trip and the 3 HC girls who were our immersion programme mates.
Those from taiwan were such a disappointment! Where were those cute, happy, friendly taiwan students we met when we were there, cos' they're obviously not in that group whom the HC girls were handling.
They are totally beng and dao and un-handsome.(8 our of 10 were guys)
They were rude and eats all day doing nothing.
Sigh.
In the end our biggest achievement was to chat with the HC girls and have a great dinner.

Then, HERE COMES THE CliMAX people! WAkE UP and READ!
While we were on our way to kino (nobody leaves Taka without going kino)
WE SAW (okay I SAW it first) KNS!!!!!!
He was with A GIRL!
WE KNOW THAT GIRL! (for those interested aka KPO, ask me who she is in person)
AND THEy SAW US!!!!!!

we were in totally shock and hated ourselves for making such a din when we w\saw them while caused them to notice us.
KNS is as irritating, loud, irritatingly loud, retarded and totally rubbish as usual.

We escaped!
We almost ran!
We went inside kino without looking back while WX and Soo entertained the unlikely duo.

THEN, we looked at Manga, cursed at ourselves for being poor (I saw the whole series of SANDMAN and it's gonna cost me like, $300+?)
and we bought a ONEPIECE character book plus a cute folder.
We were looking at Jimmy Liao's books when (gasp!) the unlikely duo saw us again!
they came near ans KNS greeted us with his usual idiotic, irritating, AA "HELLO".
I almost bit him if not for the fact that irritating-ness may be contagious.
Then, the girl who was with KNS commented
"why're you looking at chinese books? yucks!"
Now you readers know how I feel.

I comforted myself that for the rest of the year everything will be smooth and happy because we've used up our unluckiness when we met the pair of disgusting organism.

and did I mention I am going for LEp writing camp as a J2 leader when i've not even gone for it when I was J1?
ARRGHHHHHH!

Birthday! (Again!)

Yeah it's Wenxin's 18th Birthday today! (dont even get me started on how old it sounds)

Haha, I've prepared a card for WX and plan to give her on Mon to commerate her birthday. 18 is a special year cps' we've been CLASSMATES and FRIENDS for 9 YEARS already!

18 - the year for some alchols, tobacco, wine/beer and roses!

yeah! we're all becoming the terrible adults we have feared!

Near

And what did Mdm Loke say?
Don't waste time on blogging anymore.
No, don't spend anytime on movies, books, magazines etc
No, don't even waste time eat or sleep more than what your body needs
Spending more than 30 minutes on a bath or a meal is considered a waste of time!
Prepare to meet my Mum on meet the parents k?
*cheers*

Happy Birthday!!

Today's estelwen's 18th birthday!!!!

We gave her the presents and sang birthday song for her! Her presents were wonderful la...got Eeyore, sweets, chocolates, and our lovely and thoughtful capsule and bear bear handphone accessory!

18 sounds so old somehow, while 17 represents youth and the energy and lotsa sunshine and roses, 18 sounds so matured already la. Damn it.

And I'd like to stress on how much I hate Ms.T.

What does she want man?

Doesnt she have a damn computer at home?!

Why must she download some stupid china variety shows and hog the comp for hours, so what she's using her F drive?
Is it not considered downloading?
And if she got a thumb drive why did I see her borrowing ninja's that day?
Or is she using Ninjia's F drive to download some stupid videos?!?!

*goes into a rage*

Humph...

Arggh!!!!NO!!!!! *runs around and knocks into a wall*
*gets up* ARGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

If you think I'm being hysterical and just enjoys screaming, that's because I am.

ARGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

My Maths got a f**king 48.5 and Soo beside me just got an A!!! ARGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

My LEP2 got a bl**dy 52 while WZQ just barge into the room and shouted loud enough so that my mum in Jurong can hear, that he got AAB and his name will appear in honour roll!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!

I am so sure I'm gonna get like, EEF or something!

Seeya in June!! ARGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

L

Oh yeah I drew L during my free time i.e. while slacking and not studying for exams 2 weeks ago.

Vainglorious V

"Voilà! In view, a humble vaudevillian veteran, cast vicariously as both victim and villain by the vicissitudes of Fate. This visage, no mere veneer of vanity, is it vestige of the vox populi, now vacant, vanished, as the once vital voice of the verisimilitude now venerates what they once vilified. However, this valorous visitation of a by-gone vexation, stands vivified, and has vowed to vanquish these venal and virulent vermin vanguarding vice and vouchsafing the violently vicious and voracious violation of volition. The only verdict is vengeance; a vendetta, held as a votive, not in vain, for the value and veracity of such shall one day vindicate the vigilant and the virtuous. Verily, this vichyssoise of verbiage veers most verbose vis-à-vis an introduction, and so it is my very good honor to meet you and you may call me V."
Now let's observe a minute of silence while you imagine my facial expression when 10 minutes into the film "V for Vendetta", our beloved V starts giving his wonderful V speech, and there weren't even any coherent chinese subtitles for me to comprehend whatever he's said.
I mean, you'll have to applaud the scriptwriters, the Wachowski Brothers who gave us Matrix Trilogy, for writing this type of speech, I imagine them sitting in front of the dictonary and tearing the Alphabet V segment for reference. When they sleep, it's not ZzZzzZ, it's VvvVvvV.
I admire Hugo Weaving aka Agent Smith now known as V, who can actually deliver such a long paragraph of speech and not be strangled by his own tongue.Also, he, the man behind the mask, actually acts like the mask is his face. He added expressions and emotions to the Guy Fawkes mask just by talking. His voice conveys everything V wanted. *drowns*
Oh and did I mention the original actor to act as V was not Weaving? The original guy dropped out after a week because he couldnt act behind a mask throughout the film and Weaving was called in last minute, and he was brilliant.

The film was the best Freedom Fighting film I've even seen. I especially love the part when Evey (Natalie Portman) was "imprisoned" and her sole reason and strength to survive and fight was a short autobiography by a lesbian prisoner called Valerie. The autobiography was writen on single sheets of toilet paper with tiny handwriting, telling the story of how Valerie, beautiful and brave about being a lesbian and was hence caught under the terrible government then. It ended with, "whoever you are, I love you" and it touched me.
Evey later realised it was V who captured her and imprisoned her and tortured her to "help her overcome her fears". She was, naturally, angry and felt cheated. She wanted to return the sheets of toilet paper containing the autobiography to V, who then told her it was real. The autobiography was given to him when he was a prisoner years ago and Valerie was just beside his cell. Hence he was called V, for Vengeance, Vendetta, Valerie. He represented their fight for freedon.

There were bits of love in the show too. A certain scene Evey kissed V on the lips on the mask when he wanted to go and meet his maker. He paused for a milisecond, said "I can't" and walked away. By the time he came back after the fight he was soaked in blood and here's the best bit:
Evey: I don't want you to die.
V: That is the most beautiful thing you could have given me.
Then he died. *saddened*

After watching the film the impact is still not that great. It's after watching and you sit back and think about whatever messages the film is trying to convey and you think about the scenes and you felt all shaken, touched, changed. It's a beautiful, brave, meaningful film. I guess only the Wachowski Brothers can make me feel like this all over again.

Hello Lady L

*waves back to Lady Luck*
Ahem, let me begin to make you readers jealous by listing my luckiness since the day I finished my exams.

While having ramen with my friends, I received a message, informing me that I've won a pair of tickets and postcards to V for Vendetta. Then it occurred to me Ihad sent 2 messages after reading about this lucky draw on 8 Days. And, I won!! *dances around* Some of you might know Just How MUCH I wanna watch V right? I've been praying it's not M18 and it isn't! It's NC16 and I get free tickets!! Excuse me while I laugh evily.Lucky item 1!

The day after my exams, which is Wednesday, I received a message from my Fudan trip friend that I had an essay on Lianhe Zaobao! Then I remembered Mdm Lock told me about it and gave me a date which my absent mind failed to remember. There were 5 essays from our school and Wx's was there too.Lucky item 2!

Then in the afternoon, while collecting my mail from the letter box, I saw something addressed to me from SPH. My heart stopped a beat and guess what? I won a pair of Date Movie tickets and postcard!!! It was from U weekly where I cut out the coupon to win. I normally do that with only FiRST magazine but since I bought U weekly that week I thought "might as well" and Abrakadebra! Lucky Item 3!!!

Hohoho you can almost see a ring of aura above my head everywhere I go nowadays because I feel so blessed. I pray before I eat and I burn incense to Buddha everyday haha...But somehow, deep inside, I know.
I know it's not normal for me being so lucky.
Someone on earth is gonna get really down in doldrums because I had stolen all his/her luck!
Or maybe, my exams are gonna die die die so God repaid it by makeing me lucky for these few days? I really dunno...

Sorry...

Darling, it's over
We're through.
No, dont say a thing.
Nothing's gonna change our relationship.
Whatever that leads to the change, it's no longer important.
I'd love you forever, but you've changed.
You're the one who caused it.
And I pay the price.
I had to go on a shopping trip to comfort myself, I spent an extra $6 on poker cards and $12 on lunch.
It's all because of you!
Now I feel so lost.
I'd lost all meaning of life.
Now, I spend my days drawing, sleeping, playing, reading, shopping and go on frequent trips to the library.
See? All I do is now considered "not constructive", it's all your fault.
When we were together, we would spend hours just sitting together and absorbing useful information.
I spend weeks just thinking of meeting you.
I know you enjoyed tormenting me, but I cant help it.
Our love-hate relationship is not gonna work out.
It just have to end.

So goodbye for now, my love.
We shall meet again somewhere in June.
Till then, there's nothing I can do except slacking around like there's no tomorrow.
Well, there's no tomorrow for me without you by my side.
You taught me the meaning of poems, essays, books.
You taught me differentiation, integration, graphs.
You taught me organic chemistry and we both loved calculators.
Guess all I can do now is try my best to forget our bittersweet past.

Goodbye for now, Exams, I'll miss you forever.

(somewhere in the background, you hear a series of evil laughters)

I LUURRRRVVVEE Exams!

Yeah you read correctly, I LOVE exams.
Who doesnt?
1)What's more brain stimulating than taking an exam and tormenting exercising your grey matter for 3 hours straight?
Billions and zillions of brain cells die during exams and guess what? MORE brain cells will be formed and renewed!
I bet none of us here will get any stupidier with zillions of NEW braincells right?
Hence in a way, exams TRAIN our brain to work doubly (four times in my case) hard than usual to cope with the excruciating exam questions, AND, we became smarter! (with the exception of those who doesnt have zillions of brain cells to die in the first place and ends up in an asylum)

2)Exams help us physically too! After holding on to a pen and writing continuously for 3 hours straight, we get to train our left/right hand to write much longer than usual, increasing our stamina!
Also, if your way of holding a pen is not exactly the universal "correct" way, you will understand why we should hold it the universal way, though the whole process is not exactly pleasant.
After holding and writing with the incorrect way, after 3 damned hours, the hand gets all red and painful like you've just sprained every tissue and cell. The hand will start to shake uncontrollably and you cant even stretch your fingers straight. Dead cells will accumulate on your fingers which are in contact with the pen and you get, well, a mutated hand.
Hence, having exams teaches us how to hold a pen correctly and learn to write 3 hours without stopping, not to mention the improvement in handwriting after this whole exercise!

3)Having exams will eventually lead the lazier pack of us into a state of self reflection on why we didnt study harder BEFORE the exams. And the wonderful event of self-reflection and self-study and self-help will commence...
Venue: School (beside the Principle to be precise)
Time: 9am-5pm
Date: Whole of June Holidays

SO what are you waiting for? Come to our school's wonderfully planned "exams-and-its-related-uses" seminar starting from 17/3/06 to 24/3/06, admission is free! All you have to do is bring along some pens and you can start on the whole "exams" process which guarantees you loads and loads of fun-filled activities like
a)getting scolded when collecting exam papers
b)getting chased out when finished exams
c)losing your water bottle because you were chased out
and more!
So hurry! Come for exams, dont hesitate any longer!
Dont forget the value-added POST-EXAM event held during June Holidays! Seeya!

Ha!

Love estel's blogskin...it proves Fullmetal Alchemist is more worthy than her patriotism towards her Alma Mater..k k just joking..Cedarians dont come and hack me...

I love Fullmetal Alchemist though 2 episodes into the comics and I'm crying already, too dark, too sadist, but I like it anyway. It teaches us a lot of things though it's a relatively new comic series.
1)never try to meddle around with human lives.
2)we all have someone whom we wanna bring back to life, but never, ever try.
3)when people use God's name to do whatever they are doing, more often than not, it's just due to their own selfishness and it's not God's will.
4)human beings are just made up of some carbon, oxygen and hydrogen. We are nothing more than any other living organism actually.
5)there are good fathers, and they are lousy fathers, but we all have a father and it's always the lovable kids who suffer.

Btw, I read pirated comics online so I'm still a long way from reading the latest FMA books, but I'm already planning to collect its figurines already, like what I've done for ONEPIECE, and I wanna collect NARUTO figurines too...haiz, loving animes and manga is such an expensive hobby.

Did I mention I went to the book fair at expo on sunday?(I know it's exam period, but hello!? Do I look like I freaking care?)
Anyway, i wanted to buy a 512 MB thumbdrive and it's the latest Imation product and it costs $59 during the fair...after an hour of consideration I finally plucked up the courage and determination to part with my money...they're out of stock. Hello?!?! Two days into the fair and you're out of stock!? I wonder if they actually wanted to sell them in the first place or they just wanna cheat us poor consumers and just display whatever they cant manage to sell, particularly those 128 MB ones.
I am very very saddened and I came out empty handed except for a penguin bookmark my cousin bought me.
Chuangyi's booth was there too and they're selling manga at 10% discount, but, But, BUT I still didnt bought any. it's a few hundred bucks at one go and I dont that that freaking money even though its 10% off!! *knocks head against wall*

I wanted to buy the encyclopedia for DC comics (superman, batman etc, does it ring a bell?), and that Popular segment was full of aunties and kids and it's like a marketplace and I cant find my book!!! *foams at the mouth* What is Popular doing?!?!? *grumble grumble complains complains*

Time doesnt fly...

it went MIA and then out of the blue it jumps in front of us and says,"Boo!".
And then it starts giving out a calender with an event circled in red, "The Block tests." it deadpans.
And then we start to dispair...and then Time gives us another gift - a time bomb that goes tick,tock, tick,tock~...And then we prepare to run away.
But nobody can run away from Time.
And the bomb still goes tick,tock, tick,tock~...and nobody knows when it's gonna explode, or whether we will still be alive when it explodes.
~~~
Just suddenly thought of whatever I typed above.
And No, I'm NOT stressed by Block Test...and I'm not trying to stress you...(evil laughters)

Love Test?

Nice test. got it from ZX and it's really accurate on most parts. But I'm not sure if i'll remain faithful though, I have 2 personalities, afterall.

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to good manners and elegance. In love, you feel the most alive when everything is uncertain, one moment heaven... the next moment hell. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage. In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Messed up.

My life is totally messed up lately with weird happenings all around this fantastic school *tries to look genuine*
There's CCA Bazaar today! *screams, cheers, dances around*
And it is so relevant to put up a booth for Literary Liaison, a v special CCA where only LEP/HCl students must/can join. So what's up with putting up a booth with the main aim of attracting many members, like, CNNY or something?
And I am supposed to be in charge of this thingy together with beloved Lishi. But in charge of WWHHHAT!?!? Just follow the proposal for CCA Bazaar 1 la!!! Even venue is the same man!
The saddening thing is, Dear Jo threw away the headings for our booth and we gotta print it again! Damn.Damn.Damn!
ARGHHH and the last thing I wanna hear first thing in the morning is our caring and loving CT talking about teaching scholarship, didnt I mention one needs to have 4As and 2Ss to be eligible? I.E. I can just dream on.
She then mentioned teaching awards is also available, but you needa get 3As for the subjects. It's like, HUH!? Carry on dreaming, dear 'cher.

~~~

AND after buying this months' FiRST mag and TIME mag, I realise V for Vendetta is a very controversial movie (read:may be M18 and above) with violence and terrorism lurking everywhere! GREAT, now I cant watch the movie I've been looking forward to since 2 months ago!
Plus, I realise X-men 3, more known as X3, is gonna be the last episode to the X-men trilogy!!!
Why!???(screams in agony) why must movies be in threes (Matirx, LOTR, FD...you get the drift) nowadays, movie-makers like threesomes so much?!
Such a great comic like Xmen lives forever and 3 movies doesnt do this evergreen justice! They should make, like, hundreds of X-men movies! Especially interesting characters like the intellectual Beast and Angel and Shadowcat and Jean Grey who returns as Phoenix will be appearing in X3, how much can they do in a short 2 hour movie?! Precious screen time will be divided among these great characters and end up NOBODY will leave an impression! Plus the very, very important fact that Storm (Halle Berry) finally get a good hairstylist this time round and looks Fantastic, how could you end this series after only 3, three, THREE pathetic movies?!?! Get Bryan Singer back!

Still on movies, I saw Da Vinci Code's trailer and it looks great! Except for Tom Hanks who isnt the most intellectual looking actor in Hollywood, so why him!? I have nothing against this great actor and his receding hairline but I expected someone, more...handsome (there, i've said it)
However, the french actress who acts as Sophie looks v appropriate, French ladies could do no wrong, they can look sophisicated without wearing glasses.
I so look forward to the movie, and Ian Mckellen is another strong attraction for me, looking back at Magneto and Gandalf, gotta love this guy, though he's a homo knight.(i know that's not the point)

Oh and Deathnote is coming up but I so wonder if that guy who's acting as L can make it, because he looks more like an idiot than a genius, which is separated by just a thin line, he's gotta starve himself for 2 months before he could look like thet skinny L.Man, I really cant believe L is dead, I lurvvvvveeeee L's character...

~~~

Another saddening fact is that I realised I've been looking at pirated comics online and this sorta defies my principles of not pirating something I love. But Naruto and One Piece is getting further and further away from me already, 30+ and 40+ episodes respectively, which is like, hundreds of dollars!!!*faints*

~~~

And btw, the tagboard is somewhere way way below at the left of the postings right under the links and so on...I've changed the colour and size and restarted the hits counter...and if you're wondering, yes I LOVE purple, though I know this skin is not fantastic, and I am likely to change it v soon...heh heh.

white fish tank

Friday was White Fish Tank 2006!
Before the actual thingy we went for early dinner with ZX, HL, SH, Estel and Jas, we ate at Fiesta and the food was so good, especially the miso soup, that estel licked the bowl clean. If you dont believe us, look:


There, isnt it so convincing about the lovely food in Fiesta? Especially the gigantic portion of rice and spoon, and the thick, juicy slices of salmon Jas and Estel ate just makes us go green with envy
(evil laughters)
The ice green tea was made of pure green tea leaves whereby we can feel the grains and molecules of the tea leaves on our tongue. (No, we sincerely believe it's not made of undissolved green tea powder mixed with tap water) Plus they provide such great personalised services that Estel's green tea was so blend and ZX and SH's were so thick,
just right to their taste.
Now to the actual White Fish Tank.
It was v fun, especially when I saw Ostrich's girlfriend, Pan's wife (not Peter, and not Wendy) and LL and other ppl, though our interaction was like, zilch.
The banana story, aka hen hen ai, is worth going to esplanade but not worth my 8 bucks. The story is worth developing but it turned out so short plus some mic and sound system error, the whole story equals "messy" and "crap". I like the props though, though they obviously borrowed the curtains made of beads from ICS.
The second story was nice and sweet with lotsa comic relief, though WX and Haogay claimed the audience laughed at the wrong time, we insist that audiences are always right. How do script writers and backstage helpers or even the actors judge how the audience react? The audience are always right and their reactions the most genuine, there's no play without audience and I see nothing wrong with our reactions.
Anyway, bravo to those who planned, helped out and whatever whatever for White Fish Tank because I quite enjoyed it, nice.

hl is crazy

Hl is not really normal, especially now, as she is sitting right behind us, monitoring our every move, sending a chill down our spine. Therefore, ladies and gentlemen, we are now risking our lives for typing this entry.

HL is an extraordinary being, in fact, she'd be the most abnormal living thing if not for some other even more unique individuals, namely ZX, me, and me.

Her hobbies:
-Writing things like hoho, haha, hehe, chee chee, chee chee chee, chee chee chee chee, chee chee on peoples' worksheets, not forgetting to add a smiley face that looks like :) which is also her online alias.
-Doing weird motions that translates to “晴霹”, “冷到”and“累到~”
-saying weird stuff like "chee chee means two of you, chee means one of you..."

Verdict:Weirdo, psuedo-gay, 正常的something-which-I-forgot-and-dont-bother-to-remember

Muahahaha...HL dont be sad/mad, at least you're part of our 正常的 group wor~let's enjoy White Fish Tank together~

The test on Jas' blog is quite accurate really, here's mine.

GP project

This is our GP project wor~
feel free to leave some comments ba, since my presentation will be like, next year? If TSl continue at this rate we think we are so free we can edit Edit EDIT until this is perfect .

2004 Social Event
Background– June 1 - Twelve-year-old Satomi Mitarai, a Japanese schoolgirl attending Okubo Elementary School in Sasebo is murdered. It involves the slitting of Mitarai's throat and arms with a box cutter. It has come to be known as the "Sasebo Slashing".
– September 15 - 11-year-old classmate identified by Japanese authorities as "Girl A" is sentenced to be institutionalized due to the murder.
Possible reasons for murder– There were negative comments left on "Girl A"'s website by Mitarai (specifically that she was "heavy," i.e. overweight) which may have been the immediate motive for the murder.
– A police psychologist stated that "Girl A" was not mentally ill, and already had a history of violent incidents, from punching and kicking other classmates, to an issue with a knife the month before the murder.
– From her site she had linked shock flash movies and bizarre ASCII movies “that would unnerve even the most hardened internet warriors."
– Her website showcased her interests, which included fanfiction about her favourite film, Battle Royale.
Impact/Response– The murder sparked an ongoing debate in Japan about whether the age of criminal responsibility, shifted from 16 to 14 in 2000 due to the 1997 Sakakibara murders in Kobe, needed to be shifted again.
– It also raised questions regarding the exposure of the Internet to young children, and the effect of the Internet and hikikomori subculture on youth in Japan.
– The killer, "Girl A" (Nevada-tan), becomes the basis for the Nevada-tan Internet meme.
Why it was significant/Relevance
This murder issue points out three increasingly worrying social problems:
1) Juvenile criminals are getting younger and their crime more serious. According to US juvenile crime statistics, murder accounted for five percent of violent crimes committed by juveniles.
2) Internet violence and violent movies like Battle Royale are affecting how teenagers think and act. This might lead them to use violence, even murder, as a way of solving problems.
• E.g. the murder of James Bulger in 1993 - One of the aspects of the case that gained much media attention was whether Venables and Thompson had been watching violent films prior to the murder, and whether or not those movies had contributed to making the pair act in the way they did.
• Bulger's death was similar to the death in the film Child's Play 3, and the father of one of the boys had been known to hire this film the week before the murder.
3) This case gained morbid public fascination, like the continuing interest in similar violent murders like English Jack the Ripper killings of 1888. “Girl A” gained internet popularity after this murder case was published.
• Japanese web communities fixated on this story. Her personal website's popularity rocketed, and when it was taken down, mirrors were established.
• Fan songs appeared. The online store that sold the University of Nevada hooded sweatshirt reported it to be their best-selling item.
• Cosplayers created "Girl A" costumes. Artists on 2channel soon turned "Girl A" into a cute "chibified" character dubbed "Nevada-tan."
• The Nevada-tan character is often depicted with short brown hair, the trademark pullover, and a crazed, murderous smile. She is rarely seen without a box cutter or other sharp implement nearby.
• Inevitably, this spilled over into 4chan and from there to other English language imageboards, introducing Nevada-tan to the United States and the rest of the world.
Possible Questions– How does internet violence affect the mentality of teenagers?
– Should juvenile criminals be fully punished for their crimes?
– Is it fair for criminals to be judged differently due to age for the same crimes, especially serious crimes like murder?
– Why is the public fasinated with grisly, morbid issues?(horror movies, murder cases, etc)

Conclusion
The moral values of the public, especially of the teenagers, are shifting. E.g. violent games like Grand Theft Auto and Mortal Kombat, movies like Battle Royale series and Final Destination series, animes like Apocalypse Zero, are popular among many,especially teenagers, and they are very accessible online. This may affect the way teenagers act and think hence they may become more prone to violence. They may turn to violence and even murder in order to solve disputes of simply out of boredom because they’re already numbed to the blood and gore in the movies and games.
The public’s fasination and over-publicising of these terrible acts may somehow encourage more of such violent cases to occur, and affect teenagers’ attitude towards such gruesome, violent cases.

tagged

We're tagged by Jas!!!!*faints*

The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of their perfect lover. Need to mention the sex of the target. Tag 8 victims to join this game & leave a comment on their page saying they’ve been tagged. If tagged the 2nd time, theres no need to post again.

Sex : Male

Qualities:
1)Matured- If we face problems, we need a rational guy to help us solve our problems and give us advice. Also, we are naive once in a while so we need a guy to calm us down and be nice Nice NICE to us.

2)Healthy- Mentally and physically, he should be healthy enough to be deemed normal by us. Even if we are schizo, doesnt mean we cant find a guy who isnt part of the abnorml community k? Physically, isnt that obvious, we need a guy who can see us, hear our rantings, talk to us, feel us and...smell the food. Yeah. Someone who's humanoid. Also, we dont want a stickman nor a beefcake.

3)Be smart. We deem ourselves as not stupid k, we have two brains instead of one anyway. That guy must be at least at the same frequency, I dont want to tell something funny and he doesnt get it. That would be the saddest thing in life.

4)Humourous. I dont mean Billy Crystal humour but at least he can make me laugh or smile admirely at his wits. Not those sitcoms canned laughter humour k?

5)Well-to-do. I need the money to make my world go round. He musnt make me starve, he must take my mum to holidays, somewhere that snows.

6)Knowledgable. I need a guy whom I can chat forever with, without getting bored. At least he must know a little about my hobbies, comics, music, books etc.

7)Speaks well. I am always head over heels over someone with a good,low, soothing voice.

8)High EQ. I dont want a clever loner, mind you. I believe every couple deserves their individual private lives. He should be nice and has friends around him and not going around offending ppl. Being cynical is my job.

Haha I guess my points are similar to most of the others, and I feel so tired of typing "us" instead of "me", we mean, it's the same us isnt it, so I and me and we and us, it's all Chee. :)

Anyway, I dunno who to tag le...I have few friends :(

we

Things I like to say today:
"We are angry!
We are normal!
It's not me, it's her!
I'm the good Chee, she's the evil one!
I am the Evil Chee, the good Chee is not here.
It's not me!
We did not say anything!"

In case you're wondering, it's us who are typing now, both the Good Chee and Evil Chee.
And in case you're wondering again, yes, I am We are Schizophrenic and has split personality.
It dawned upon me us that, after reading a certain Big U's GP presentation, that schizos are prone to violence (that's us), and if they we commit a crime the judge is likely to give a lighter sentence(cheers).
We almost drove HL crazy today by refering to us as "us".
I mean, we just wanted to recognise our presence, what's wrong with that?
Good Chee:(nods)
Evil Chee:(evil laughters)

As I was we were saying, we hope everyone reading this will recognise our identities and pardon the Good Chee should the Evil Chee did anything unpleasant, namely biting, scolding, screaming and hitting any Jia, Yi, Bing or Ding along the way.
Good Chee:yeah!(smiles sweetly)
Evil Chee:yeah!(evil laughters)

Ahem, so we, the Chees (not cheese), hereby announce of our individual identities and hope everyone respect our unique personalities.
Good Chee:Thank you for your cooperation!
Evil Chee:(snorts)

yeah right

I remember during the last MSLO session last year whereby a bunch of us (Me, ZX, HL, SH, MY, WX, Jas) sat together with Mdm.Loke and discussed whatever we feel about each other one by one.
When it was WX's turn to talk about me, she said I hasnt changed since Primary School. Then Mdm Loke wanted her to talk about what have I not changed.
I quietly whispered :"Height" to those beside me and they all laughed.
Somehow deep inside I knew I have changed, everything that I was have changed, but somehow perhaps I've not changed at all.

I was very insecure and very inconfident about myself, I was a transfered student there and somehow I just dont blend in much. I was never much of a social person anyway.
I was very soft spoken and I never go out and 混 after school. I even participated in a buddy reading system where I teach Pri 1 students how to read.

In secondary school I grew up.
I indulged in books and stuff that my peers never read and I know things they never knew they never knew.
I get to choose who I wanted to be with and somehow, I discovered my abilities to manupilate people. I know how to make them say or do what I wanted them to, by doing or saying something myself. I know what to do and I always get the reaction I wanted. But of course, they never knew I planned it all.
I managed to take a stand and turned away from a friend that I knew since Pri 4 and came to same sec and same class as me(no,it's not WX). That friend was always the leader and always wanted thihgs her way. I did not relent anymore.
I became an unofficial leader in my small clique.
I was the budding Chee that you guys see now.

In JC now, I am totally freed from whatever goody-two-shoe I was, perhaps it's due to my family woes, of simply due to my personal growth.
I perfected my lies and my wits.
My reaction tends to be fast and straightforward.
Teachers know me but they never understand me.
I am now a complete, cynical, dark-humour oriented person.
I am now who I am. I still have my friends, albeit friends change.

I have came a long way and Ive changed a lot. Somehow part of me felt that 've never changed at all too.
I think a better word for changed would be forgotten.
I've forgotten how to be nice to everyone anymore, so I choose to be only nice to some.
I've forgotten how to try my every last bit of strength to sustain a friendship, I only try to sustain some that's worth it.
I've forgotten why I felt happy so easily anymore, I am now happy for other things.
I did not forget my childhood memories and games, but I can never go back, plus some memories were never sweet anyway.

The Chee that I am now was a seed inside me.
It grew and grew and the old me withered until only part of the soul was left.
I dont even bother to try and save that part of my more innocent soul anymore.

I am evil.
Trust me.
Whatever unhappiness some of u readers may feel is all because of me.
I cant help it.
Sue me.

chey

hm..."为什么他还没离开，我就已经开始想念了？" is not, Not, NOT dedicated to V Ng ya?
Just in case anyone aka WX thought the other way.
Yes, I am kinda sad V Ng's leaving.
But missing him is too much seriously.

I hate PE, I hate social dance, it's just so wrong.

I hate the rule that says we arent suppose to eat in LEP room, that's like we cant sh*t in a bathroom.

Anyway, that 汉语常识比赛 is completely sucky because the 1st multiple choice question was which year did the US astronauts reach the Moon? Hmm.
Which of the following castle is in England? Hmm Hmm.
7 wonders of the World? Hmm.....
I am surprised my team mates dunno "落雁" is "王昭君" and 身无采凤双飞翼 is before 心有灵犀一点通 but I'm so proud of WX to know that stupid 对联:
龙
虎虎
望
山山山
湖湖湖湖湖
海海海海
会
仙仙仙仙仙仙仙仙

it actually means
"单龙双虎望三山，五湖四海会八仙"

*cheers* it's about 0.007256% linked to 汉语常识.Yeah.

hmm

I was awaken by Soo's call this morning but I was feeling very dazed and thought it was the alarm so i just pressed it away. Then Soo sms-ed me and I realised her swollen eye got v serious and needs to see doc.
I thought:oh okay..
and tried to get up
but I can't.
I was so dizzy and my whole body weighs a ton with my head taking up half the weight.
Since it was a friday and I had to leave early for MOE seminar anyway I decided to just continue sleeping until I felt better. I informed my comrades about the news.
The next time I regained conscience was when my sis asked me why I wasnt in school, I mumbled that I wasnt feeling well and continued sleeping.
The next next time I regained conscience was because my mum was in the shock of her life when she realised I was still sleeping and am already damn late for school.
I wasnt feeling well, ladies and gentleman, might I stress, and it's taxing to explain everything all over again.
Anyway I managed to sleep til 11 (I had to struggle to get up) and then I had diarrhoea.
Damn.
In the afternoon I was better and I still went for the MOE seminar (slap me please), it's so damn useful 3 minutes into the talk I realised I wasn't eligible because I only take 3 A level subjects, but I had to sit throught the whole thing with weird students asking weird questions like, "I took food and nutrition as a subject during O levels and I'm so interested, is it possible I teach this subject only in the future?"
I ended up reading the 2 comic books I've just borrowed from the library, namely SANDMAN and SIN CITY, thank god and buddha and allah that I have enough sense to bring them with me.
After the whole agonising session I actually finished reading them and proceeded to the library again to return them and borrowed more books. MOE seminar rocks!
~~~
I realised 10, might I stress, TEN ,might I stress again, it's T_E_N people from my class who was absent today!(my whole class have only a measely 10 ppl) Wow, guess I have to explain and swear and bring out all my ancestors before mdm loke believe I
was really feeling ill.
Then again, a parent's letter might suffice.
:)

"chee hui is goin crazy
chee chee cheer
hahaha
chee chee 踢我
没人理我
做尼姑!!!
yeah!!
chee juz poked me
n i screamed bleah"

that was about the summary of wx and hl's thoughts during our break today, gotta love 'em.
~~~
During our maths lesson (or is it?) a sudden idea dawned on me, it was an imagined scenerio with characters from Naruto.
Jiraiya just came back from a mission and set off to leave immediately to help Naruto and his group, but not before giving something he bought to Tsunade.
Tsunade watched as he left again.
Then a phrase came to my mind, like it has been already there forever.
"为什么他还没离开，我就已经开始想念了？"
For those who dunno, Jiraiya likes Tsunade and courted her before, but Tsunade didnt like him and dated everyone in the village but him.

"为什么他还没离开，我就已经开始想念了？"
why the hell am I thinking of that?!?!?!
I liked Tsunade and Jiraiya so much I am seeing things just by staring in space?
damnit.

And that sorta conclude why I didnt go for maths extra lessons, it's SO interesting.

oh..

Oh...so
If I dont go for that bloody extra lessons I have to get A for maths la?
(What if I just dont wanna go for an extra hour of wasting time?)

If I didnt protest it means I agree la?
(when you assume, u make an ASS out of U and Me)

If you are pissed that means you gotta vent it on me la?
(You just have to give a pissed look i gotta speak up for u?)

If you're migrating means i gotta accept and adapt la?
(I hate changing of teachers, even if it's one I dont exactly adore)

If I sleep early it means i cant get tired izzit?
(I always wake up several times at night mind you)

If I am late it's all my fault right?
(yeah, right.)

If I'm blogging just to grumble I am really pissed right now right?
(YES.)

Damn

Brief.

Taiwan Immersion Sharing:Damn Damn Damn

White Fish Tank:Godamnit. Bloody God.damn.it

Good vs Evil

Evil Me: I don't discriminate. I hate everybody.
Good Me: Are. You. Serious? (you can literally see the capital letters flying around)
Evil Me: Of course I'm not, I am Dead Serious.
Good Me: Bu..but..but why?
Evil Me: *waves dismissively* I dunno, perhaps it's because
1)I wanna pon GP today but every once in a blue blue moon when I try to pon anything the teacher somehow knew and just had that gut feeling to take attendence today. Today was no exception ad I had to rush there with my comrades who was unlucky as well. I guess when it comes to luck, 3 unluckies makes a very unlucky.
2)I had GP essay test today. End of Story.
3)I was blamed for something that's not completely my fault. It is my fault u didnt come for the class? Is it solely my fault that no one takes the notes for u? Is it my bloody problem u didnt ask the teacher for the notes after 2 damn weeks?!?! U thought friends should be like that, well, I'm no goody-two-shoe who takes-everything-for-a-friend-and-doesnt-forget-anything friend)
4)I will be having 常识比赛 test today ( though it's just a 小小、小小的　test, I still hate anything that starts with a T and ends with -est and a E then ends with -xam)
5)I have LEP2 extra lessons today. End of Story.
6)I have S paper today. End of Story.
7)I have loads of work undone.
8)My niece Ting Ting arrived yesterday with my Grandma...oh wait!! *does a small dance* Muahaha I have a bundle of joy at home waiting for me *beams*
9)I have a bundle of joy waiting for me and I can't go home anytime soon.
10)I am just being evil and hateful.

You are Kakashi!


Which Naruto Character Are You?
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Loved by many, and seemingly more angsty than you

let on, you are Kakashi!


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2 tests and same results, yeah I'm Kakashi!!
I wanna buy Naruto comics...*sobs*

Blogging

Discovered a great shocking piece of news today! Campus Superstar S.T got into deep sh*t because of a certain entry he blogged last year about Project Superstar winner W.L. Apparently a W.L supporter chanced upon S.T's blog and coincidentally went to read his archives and discovered S.T's horrible entry that is not very pleasant towards W.L. That supporter happens to tell a someone who happens to be a reporter and he decided to uphold justice and wrote about this thingy on WanBao. Isn't that just fatefully coincidental?

There are people out there dying of hunger and suffering from poverty and there are those with terminal diseases and born handicapped.
There are children who cry for their long-gone mothers and there are elderly attending the funerals of their own children.
There are those who commited suicide and there are those who was brutally murdered.
There are patients who relied on donations to survive and there are those who are justing waiting for the Reaper.
And there are those who decided to write about a certain entry posted an era ago about the most insignificant thing on earth and there are those who made blogs no longer personal and became a responsibility, not as if all bloggers are posting discriminating entries or whatever. Coincidentally they belong to the same group of people.
To those 没事找事做的　reporters in Singapore, get a life.
Even though Singapore is puny and any bigger wave can drown us all, even though Singaporeans can go ga-ga over William Hung and Xia Yi and Xu Chun Mei and Qu Mei Feng, even though Singaporeans pour out money for a certain girl's funeral when all the money went to her family members, do we have to sink even lower and care about an inconspicuous blog entry posted by a JC guy who happen to act and sang on TV before!?!?!?
I guess u dear readers got my point.
~~~
Anyway, I realise J1s are starting to come inside LEP room so I made it a point to keep me and my friends' volume low in order to set a good example. But I guess there's no need to do these crap because the J1s are a bunch of crap already. They're childish and seems so fasinated by our internet access and Gmail and the furnitures in LEP room. AND they assume they can play computer games on LEp computers. Hello?! This is MY LEP room and those are MY computers. I let u pathetic J1s enter due to respect for the common cubject we studied plus the fact that LEP rooms' supposed to be school property.(for more details, go to Zhixin's blog) I am impressed by this years' J1s, add weird guys with hyper girls and u get a bunch of idiotic J1s who just cant grow up. Makes u wonder how a 1 year difference in age and make SUCH a BIG difference, although there still are idiotic J2s (read: WJS).
~~~
I realised I'm such a slacker they should gimme a trophy. I play Pokemon on gameboy for hours for the past few days and I didnt do any homework unless I'm already past the dateline.
I'm a slacker yet I can survive, happily.
Sue me.

Huo Yuan Jia

Fate Made Him A Warrior, Courage Made Him A Hero.

The Real Huo Yuan Jie (霍元甲) (-_-")


The Onscreen Huo Yuan Jia (霍元甲) (^.^)

Went to see Fearless yesterday, it was good, particularly the fighting scenes when Jet Li gets to use his fists, knives, swords, 三节棍, etc to show off his martial arts skills (hello? this is a guy who won World Martial Arts Champion 5 times before he was even 20!).
The girl who acted as Moon, the blind girl and Huo Yuan Jia's supposed love interest completely cannot-make-it, I'm not convinced she's blind AT ALL. Also, there's no love scenes or anything that suggests their in love except for the part where HYJ promises to return, other than that, zilch. In fact, I think that part is not exactly needed, considering that 40 minutes of the original movie was cut away for commercial and practical purposes (including Michelle Yeoh's part!!!!*dies*), they should really consider carefully what should exactly be cut i.e. non-Michelle-Yeoh parts.
Jet Li is good and the moral of the story is kinda good too, since it's based on the true story of a hero HYJ (see 1st picture). But due to time constraint, some parts were vague, like how and when did the stepson of that guy that HYJ killed went for revenge and killed HYJ's mum and daughter? The rest of the family were unscathed and ignorant of the tragedy.
Considering that the director is the guy who did Bride of Chucky(who resembles one of our PE teacher SO much), I shan't ask for too much.
The part when HYJ (see 2nd picture) suddenly becomes philosophical and starts talking sagely is totally Jet Li instead of HYJ but I love one of the lines:
"活着本来就不是一个人的事.". HYJ said it moments before his last fight when his opponent wanted him to treasure his life but the audience were cheering for him, he decided to fight on and died due to poisoning.
After watching the movie, apart of the entertainment value and one of the best fight scenes ever, i realise a sad thing: even a hero grows old. When Jet Li was young with his boyish look, he was the best Wong Fei Hong(黄飞鸿) or Foong Sai Yuk (方世玉) or even
张三丰(with Michelle Yeoh in the movie too!)

He is now old and his boyish charms just doesnt work like before, however, like what I've heard, Jet Li's martial arts skills makes Jacky Chan just a brute that fights around with a big nose. Regardless of age, Jet Li's still the best in Wu Shu.

You scored as Emo Kid. You listen to emo. 'Nuff said. You know how to dress. You usually feel as if nobody understands you. Emo Kid 53% Punk 47% Geek/Nerd 40% Hot 33% Goth 33% Prep 20% "Ghetto" 20% Stoner 13% Loner 13% Jock 7% What Highschool Clique Do You Belong To? created with QuizFarm.com

hmm...well...i dunno...

Women I love

Some of the women I just admire, and dare I say, love.


*screams* according to Miao, Michelle Yeoh's very very beautiful in Memoirs of the Geisha, but of course. I love her chinese name too, 杨紫琼, one of the best names I've seen with the surname 杨, plus the fact that I love purple(紫)~


Cate Blanchett, haha love this picture of her, daring and even scary~ There's two sides to everything, including such a beautiful woman like her...


There, the quintessentially original, graceful and godly Galadriel.




Brigitte Lin Ching Hsia 林青霞, in white hair, black hair, young, old, normal, crazed looks. She's got the 'tude.
~~~

By the Way, my other blog is up, though not much at all. I 've linked it to the "sighed" word at the end of every entry or at the links page. The first on the list, of course. I'm narcissistic too.

HP

I almost died of a heartache yesterday when my handohone broke down again.
Via SMS, me and dear friend Xin Ying exchanged our opinions on this matter.
Me: Yo!I'm in a cheery mood today! Life's good! My HP's spoilt for the THIRD time, SAME prob, barely a MONTH after it's being repaired AGAIN!
XY: Haha..Can see that you are mad le.....complain.....Haha....
Me: Me?Mad? *flashes megawatt smile* how could I be mad? i am such a peaceful and loving person *waves* world peace!~ anyway if complaints work pigs can fly
XY: Haha...then I declare u nuts.....Want me to send u to the chalet near my house?
Me: Lol does it start with a W and made from trees
XY: Haha...Maybe we are talking about the same thing....It is made of trees n link one place to another
Me: Lol I was there last week to visit you what dontcha remember?
XY: Really...I dont know...Maybe u saw my mirror self
Me: Maybe your evil self was there so it's the good xin ying msg-ing me now right?
XY: Haha...Ya...the kind hearted soul who wants to cure your craziness....
Me: I'm so touched, do ya have a hammer for me to smash the Nokia counter?
~~~~And the crazy sms ends~~~~

Anyway, pictures of me in Mersing..

Me and my niece Ting Ting



Mersing Lake

SANDMAN

I am blogging today to recommand a wonderful series of 10 comic books, SANDMAN. If you are one of those who snorts when the word "comics" is mentioned, it's time to change your attitude.
SANDMAN is a story about the life of DREAM, or MORPHEUS (same as my fav character from Matrix!!! *screams*) and many other names that people call him, but essentially, he's the Dream of the Endless. Throughout the book, we get to know about stories of different individuals and how they eventually swirl and twirl into one whole great SANDMAN story. Being the Prince of Dreams, Dream can travel in our dreams and nightmares and he abd his subordinates collect them as stories. In his realm, there's an entire library of dreams and stories, every dream we may have dreamt and forgotten, the Library of Dreams keeps record.
Beautiful illustrations, lovely stories, some sex and love here and there, mostly it's about Dream and at the end of the day, we learnt that Dream never dies. Dream also has some sisters and brothers. They are Destiny, Death, Desire, Despair, Delirium who was once Delight, and Destruction, the one who turned his back on his duties. Their names describe their function and the realms that they are in charge of.
It's a series wonderfully enchanting books and I cant describe to you how great and enjoyable it is to sit down and read those creations by Neil Gaiman. It makes you part of it, because everyone dreams, one way or another.
Out of so many comic books I've read these few months, both English and Chinese ones, SANDMAN is the one who touched me most. I had to fall in love with Dream, the solemn and skinny guy, and his sisters, the fetish Death and Cutish Delirium.
Before you read this book, be prepared to leave everything you thought you knew about Dreams and Death and other Endless things behind you. You have never seen anything like this before.
Be warned, it's going to be dark yet funny, sadist yet touching. Everyone's part of it.
Check out the author:

:: Neil Gaiman ::

Chinese New Year

Just spent about two days in Jalan Jemaluang, Mersing, Malaysia to celebrate new year at my Grandma's place. It's those old shophouses but the provision shop that it used to be on the 1st floor has already been closed down and serves as living room now. 2nd storey consists of a living room and a stretch of about 6 rooms where my mum and her 6 sisters and 2 brothers used to live in as a child.
Did nothing much there on the first day except lazing around or chatting with my cousin, Shu, who lives in Singapore too (me, my mum and her went back to Malaysia together). We had reunion dinner and there were around 20 cousins and relatives,we occupied two tables, in the past we 'll need about 4 tables to go around but this year, less than half of the relatives returned.
We spent the second day still lazing around and we had vegetarian food as a ritual on the 1st day of Lunar New Year, we played poker (brought to Mersing by yours truly, the ever-gambler) and ate every snack we can find that does not contain eggs and other non-vegetarian products.
The 3rd day we played poker all day and almost everyone was involved, we actually taught my youngest auntie how to play Big Two (laughs evilly), however she's a fast learner (guess gambling's in our genes) and actually won some money after few rounds.
My nephews arrived later in the afternoon and we played Black Jack with 'em, all less than 10 years old and played with 10 or 20 cents, i had to keep providing a 7 yr old little nephew Ah Jian coins because he would look depressed everytime he loses. The kids learned to play Black Jack after about 30 mins into the game (told ya it's in the genes) before we had dinner and leaves for Singapore.
It was a nice trip and Mersing is a lovely rural-urban area, an elder cousin drove us to a lake and it was beautiful, the journey was less than a minute and I was surprised how something so surreal can exist in Mersing.
Everything was good except my auntie-in-law who's the evil stepmum kinda person all the time and most relatives I know doesnt like her much. She asked why my Dad didnt go back to Malaysia for so long and I wonder is she faking ignorance or doesnt she know I dont live with my damned dad anymore. I heard this aunt-in-law of mine also complained to my Grandma about her 3 sons not giving her money more New Year when they didnt give my Grandma either, my Grandma had to persuade them to give money and one of them gave my aunt-in-law 50 RM, to which she complained was too little compared to 100 RM the year before. Some people are just never satisfied.
Another bad thing that happened was this ROC girl one of my cousins got as a fiancee, she's not those educated ROC ppl we see all the time, she's not really good in her language and she's a smoker (though most of the male cousins and uncles in Malaysia were) and an avid gambler. She throws the cards with a loud smack and I could almost hear my cards scream, and she never really participates in our cards games directly. She would modestly reject when we told her to join but stand behind us, look at our cards, and shouting out which card we should out or sometimes even snatch the card out and throw it for us. Come on, if u wanna play, grab a seat. If not, shut up and just watch.
The fun part was the card games and my youngest niece, Ting Ting, who's nine months old and such a dear, anyone can carry her and I've never heard her cry or whine during my stay, she's always in a good mood and smiling, gotta love that baby gurl!